A few times in my life I have been lucky enough to have real-time Q&A with Guidance, I call God, via journal writing after an extended silence in nature. Last Sunday was one of those beautiful and surrendered moments. I was at my cousin’s house in Santa Fe and a soft and heavy snow was gently falling. I had two clear questions I wanted answered. I took my journal and a hot cup of tea and went out on the porch and sat in open-eyed meditation, including a walk on the labyrinth for more than thirty minutes, following the process discussed in Episode 16. I left my phone inside, took off my watch but just had the timer set for 30 minutes and set it where I couldn’t see it. When it beeped, I turned it off and kept meditating. After a while, I felt complete, picked up my journal, and wrote the first question. The answers came through my pen, and I read them, much as I had done in the Alps in September last year. Not liking the answers I was getting, I asked again but got the same answers. It was very clear. I then asked how I was to do it and when and then brought up the second question. Again, I got clear answers and on whether to do it and how to do it and when. One theme showed up. “Go toward what you fear.” The first thing was the fear of disappointing others and financial disadvantage if I stopped doing something. The second was the more traditional, just fear of doing something. But both were rooted in the fear of what others might think of me, of disappointing others. This week, I have leaned into both per the guidance that came through my pen by way of silence and waiting. It was also clear that I didn’t need to know how either thing would work out in the end, just what actions to take now. I took/am taking both of those actions now and it feels good, even if it was scary and I still don’t know how it will work out.
Trusting I will be OK no matter how it works out, is faith. This is what makes it possible to keep my calm in the storm. I also recognize that “OK” has a very large range, but whatever happens, I can keep centered in the moment and stay grateful for all the good in that moment, whatever it is.
I am so grateful to have this Guidance in my life.
What have you been avoiding deciding? What are you fearing? Take some time for silence and to wait on God/Guidance this weekend and see what comes to you. The key is to make it a least 30 minutes and have no distractions, not even a timer you can see. And then have a journal where you can write your questions and answers. Let me know how it works for you.
Have a great weekend,
Art
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